Here we go again!

As soon as I hit publish last night we heard it. That unmistakeable barking cough that we had heard so much on sunday night. Surely Bubbs couldn't be going again, when we got downstairs we found it was Jim Jam instead. So, we ventolined, calpoled and eventually gave her some steroid pills to help her breathing...can you tell we have gone through this often now! The only disadvantage of the steroids as wonderful as they are at helping them breathe is it keeps them awake. I finally went to bed this morning at 5am, only to be up again at 655am.

Today was a really low day for me, managed to get Bubbs to nursery and myself and the girlies to church where, once they were in creche I promptly burst into tears. Luckily I had managed to get Jim Jam and myself a docs appt later in the morning. What would I do without such wonderful friends. I had a good 45 mins chatting and blubbing before I had to leave. I feel tears are meant to be shed, no point having them otherwise. The doctor was wonderful and put my mind at ease about Jim Jam and her chest, also about self medicating with the steroid tablets, I knew in my heart it was the right thing to do but you still need that confirmation that you did the right thing. I also got my own medication upped, which I had been trying to put off since christmas. Why is it we as mothers are so hard on ourselves and feel the need to cope and not be a failure. Anyway, I admitted defeat and the doc was fab. Looking forward to the meds kicking in though as I am the most irrational person at the minute and I am sure hubby will appreciate it too!! Wow, unloaded rather alot there didn't I, oh well, it pays to be honest.

I did say I would put some photos on the other night so here goes: Didn't work as they were unable to upload my images.....will try again later. Speak soon