Thiefs, you are not going to get me down!!!!!!!!!!

Firstly, thank you for all the lovely and supportive comments left for me, it is so nice to know people do actually read what I write especially as I hadn't done for so long.

Mentally, I am doing great. I still get cross with the kids but with CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) which I am still learning to get to grips with and all my outside worries etc still being there I am feeling BETTER, woo hoo. All my children are being great. The girlies are playing together beautifully when Bubbs is at school now without nearly as much fighting. Anyone who reads this who has twins with older siblings will relate as when all 3 of them are together it is much harder work than if there is just the 2, be it the 2 of them or 1 of them with Bubbs. I am sure that is nothing to do with twins just 3 siblings. This is making life much easier though because I don't feel like a boxing referee all the time and the house just feels lighter.

Bubbs is doing better at school which I am really happy about and we got his school pix back today which is just so cute!!!! He is doing really well, no extremely well at his swimming lessons too and can pretty much swim. We did quite a lot of nothing over the half term school break. It was nice for all of us not to have to get up and out by 810am for school and we had a couple of PJ days. We saw no one from school and just really connected as a family. Hubby was off from the weds till tuesday which was awesome! Weds, Hubby and girlies went to the beach with the dog and had a blast and I spent the day with Bubbs. We were all supposed to do the beach thing but Bubbs said he didn't feel well so we stayed home but when I suggested doing something just the 2 of us he perked up....I am thinking he just needed some mummy time (bless). We walked into town for a couple of errands and then I took him to lunch which was lovely. Because of this, Hubby and I are now going to make a conscious effort to do things with all of them individually more often, esp Bubbs at the minute. However guilty this makes me feel saying it, I think my mental state over the summer affected him far more than I realised or even thought about. We always knew and had planned that we would be doing this but for some reason just didn't seem to think about doing it when they were so young...but I guess they are not actually that young anymore

Friday we went to stay with my Godparents, suzjim...that is what the kids call them. I love going there as we are thoroughly spoilt and it is like going on a mini break with the kids,who get equally spoilt. We went to a water park pool, you know the ones with wave machines and tubes and all had a BLAST, staying really late and just having a great time. All of this was marred by the fact that my hand bag got stolen!! Luckily, they didn't take the car but very kindly did leave the keys in the front seat (bizarre I know). The whole thing has cost me a fortune as we had to change the locks because my house keys and driving license were both in there! Also, our house insurance doesn't cover it as personal possessions is an 'optional extra'. But, it is only material so I have to let it go.

Saturday we came home, changed the locks and lazed about. Spending tea time having a KFC floor picnic watching family TV it was like something out of a movie and just as cool as it sounds.
Sunday we got back in the car and headed back to my grand parents after church, it was Church parade so Hubby was in his scout role and Bubbs joined him. He loves doing that it makes him feel so grown up. We had a lovely day with the grand parents and all in all this was the best school break ever. Made even more perfect by the fact that my mum came home sunday night too and is staying with us for a couple of weeks......I love her and having her here is a God send, literally.

Monday was back to school for Bubbs which was fine. Hubby was off too as it was our wedding anniversary....13 years! I love him more now than I ever did and cannot and wouldn't want to imagine life without him. He is my rock and however crappy I am with him he still loves me and after the year I have had mentally that is pretty impressive. I love you babe. We went out for a pretty crappy lunch with the kids and mum but still had a lovely day.

All back to normal now, everyone back where they should be and everyone happy. It's been a long time since I was able to say that and yes, I am relishing it.
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Catch up, catch up, catch up!

So I've been having counselling, figured out I have been depressed since I got fired when I was pregnant with Bubbs...so going on nearly 6 years, I have failure issues, an eating disorder of sorts and many other things too, even though I really don't remember much of my childhood at all....a fact that my sister finds hilarious! But, I am feeling better.

Everyone is doing well here, I had a weekend off with my sister in Penzance which was lovely and Hubby had a good time with the kids. We are all of down there for a few days next week which will be great and the kids can't wait. It will be nice for hubby too as he hasn't been there or seen K for ages.

Beginning to realise that I really miss my parents now that they are truly living in France. (I know you read this mum and I am not saying any of this to make you feel guilty just airing my feelings.) I went to my Aunts for a little party for my nans birthday and took the children for the day and just had such a good time spending it with her and my cousins and their children. I felt quite envious of the fact that Auntie H is around just down the road from them all and they get to see each other regularly and can just pop in. I can understand why my parents are doing it but it still doesn't make it any easier, sometimes you just need a bit of mum company.

Kids are doing well, Bubbs is having some issues at school as he is really young in his year group and just can't seem to concentrate in a group and gets very easily distracted but when he is working individually does really well. So that has been playing on my mind alot but realistically he is still fine. The girls are loving nursery although I can't wait to get the government grant for their fees come January as I still have half a term to pay for which comes out at 217 pounds and that is only for 2 mornings a week. Once the grant kicks in though I am putting them in 9-3 monday and 9-12 tues and fri.....I am looking forward to catching up on keeping house as it is a tip and there is so much filing in our bedroom we are finding it hard to move now!!

Hubby has started helping in the local Scout group at our church and is loving it. He hasn't had much chance to cycle recently but I am sure he will be out on his bike this weekend at some stage.

That pretty much catches us up. I have been reading blogs and commenting but should be back now. I am acquiring my sisters old laptop next week which should mean I can put pix back on again too.
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Absence

Sorry, just can't do this at the mo. Really struggling mentally and just can't keep up
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France pix

Just a few random pix from our holiday so far! This is the girlies getting ready to go for ride Bubbs and the girlies having a cocktail in our friends bar!!

Feeding the chickens and ducks at the same friends house Dad in his pride and joy Austin 10 Dorothy...great for going round the country lanes in...the kids loved it

Our first pool shot, this was taken because they had both put their hats in the water and had them back on their heads but it doesn't look as funny in the picture

We are having a great time apart from Hubby has now gone home which is a bummer. Will keep you posted with more soon

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France

Woo hoo after a 15 hour drive we arrived. Man it was long but worth it.

The week is going incredibly quickly as Hubby goes home on Sunday without us as he has to go back to work!! Not sure how the children will react to this but we have another 4 weeks here without him!

Stupidly forgot the wire that connects my phone (camera) to the computer so will have to rely on pix from mum and dads camera. So far just hanging at home in paddling pool and have been to my cousins house.
Will keep you posted...oh I have fallen down a step and put 2 massive gashes in my knee....oops hopefully they won't get infected but we'll see
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Computers don't you just love um!!!

Bubbs birthday was amazing, firstly let me say that and he had a great time as did we all.

I found the lead for my computer but it now won't let me upload pix from my phone which is really annoying especially for the grandparents!!!

I am so tempted to just go out and buy a new lappy as there is one on sale at mo for £299 at a local large superstore but we are in so much debt with flippin nursery fees I just can't...that is why I am not blogging much though as it is just tooooo slow!!!!!

Hope everyone well, I am still reading!!
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We are still here

Sorry haven't blogged in forever and not going to say much here as we are getting ready for Bubbs 5th Birthday tomorrow. I will post pix then as at the minute I can't find my phone cord to transfer the picture of the cake I have just finished making....it is a guitar!!!!!

See you tomorrow
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