Half term family fun

So, our week hasn't quite gone as planned! We made the movies on Monday but that night Millie and I both came down with a tummy bug! Bleurgh! I haven't felt that ill in ages, the day started at 3am!! Anyhoo, we spent Tuesday on the sofa ALL day and I mean that too. I got up to fix W and J food but that was it, I couldn't stay awake and just felt terrible. It also meant we had to miss the Light Party which the kids were gutted about but M was still peaky and I really didn't want to pass it on! So our first day out was yesterday and what a fab day it was. We went off to my grandparents who are in their 90's and took them out to lunch which my aunt and uncle joined us for too. After we'd visited with them for a bit we headed over to my cousins where W and O played a bit of Wii, J got to hang with D and M got to try to play the didgereedoo with Uncle Mark.... He really can play it!! All in all a fab day, they all live 70 miles away so unfortunately we don't do it that often as right now it is just too expensive and the only regret I have from yesterday is that I took no pix with grandma and grandpa nee naa!! To put it into perspective for my US friends it cost me £70 ($120) to fill my car up with gas yesterday!!!!!!!!
Today is another quiet one, we go back to school Monday so are making the most of not having anywhere to go! Once we go back its the countdown to Christmas and Bill is away loads this month inc 2 full weekends and tomorrow too!!!! I'm actually hosting Thanksgiving this year too with my neighbours who have never done it before! Luckily, that is the only weekend Bill is here for!!
How's your week been??

Happy Monday Everyone

First day of half term xxx got a lovely week planned, movies today (iceage4) at the kids club, Tuesday- swimming lessons, wed- light party (our alternate to Halloween), thurs- off to see my grandparents both in their 90s, taking them out for lunch then tea at my cousins with their kids, fri- our 16th wedding anniversary, nothing during the day but Bill and I off to see Skyfall x
Can you believe it's then November!!!!! Have a great week y'all, I'll be posting any cool pix we get xx

A date with William!

So today Jaime has a party which means I have a date with William because Bill has a date with Millie. I love this one on one time, we get it so rarely. Poor William really wasn't feeling great though so wasn't much of a conversationalist and we bought that gorgeous looking strawberry milkshake home :( I'm now tucked up on the sofa with William xx let's hope he gets better for half term even if we don't have the best weather forecast!

One foggy morning.....

What a lovely walk to school this morning! It was sooooo foggy BUT it made for great cobweb spotting! They were everywhere, on the lights, on the bushes, on railings, fences and cars. The picture doesn't really do them any justice they are just beautiful.
Have I mentioned I love autumn!
Happy Monday everyone xx

Strictly or X Factor???

We are such a Strictly family in this household! We couldn't give a monkeys about the singing shows but give us the glitz and glamour of ballroom and we are away!
The pic is of the kids and Bill snuggled up, recognise the blanket Shar???
We've also had a bit of a busy day, we went to kids club movies this morning to see Brave, fab film which we all loved even if William was a bit scared in parts! We ended up meeting a friend with her daughter after and went for pizza too!! We so rarely go out to eat as a family it was a bit of a novelty AND not too expensive. We managed to take 5 of us to the movies and out for lunch for £46! If we had gone to the normal movies it would have been that much just for the film!!
Ooh, and I got to Skype my sister in sunny CA which was lovely x
Anyway, happy weekend one and all xxx

Cubs

My gorgeous boy got invested into Cubs this evening!! Bless him, however challenging things are with him right now he is still a cutie!!!!!

Gods gift

To us this morning was the most vivid red sky! It's not nearly as beautiful in this picture but you get the idea xx

Saturday fun!!

We normally never go to town on a Saturday but today we made an exception! Kids needed boots for the winter and I'd tried doing it without them and was very unsuccessful so we braved the crowds!! What do you think of them? Millie has the bright pink ones, Jaime's are kind of pewter. Cute or what! You have to love H&M x I spent £59.97 and got 3 pairs of boots, 2 dresses, a pair of jeans and a pair of jogging bottoms.....not bad if I do say so myself!
We also saw an author in the book store and the Minotaur and the knight are from her book, it actually took quite a bit of persuading for the kids to go pose with them x
A quick salted caramel hot chocolate stop later and we're now home having left William and Bill in games workshop for his good week reward. The girls and I are off to sort out their wardrobe!!
Happy Saturday everyone!

Rainbows!!

Look what we saw on the way to school today!!

One of those lists.......

I haven't done one of these for ages, enjoy and hopefully someone else might do it too xx

 

***********FOODOLOGY*************** 

1. What is your salad dressing of choice?  Ranch

2. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?  Don't have one, but would love to find one

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?  Hot buttered toast

4. What are your pizza toppings of choice? Pepperoni

5. What do you like to put on your toast? Real butter

***********TECHNOLOGY*************** 

1. How many televisions are in your house? 1

2. What is the color of your cell phone? Back

3. Have any idea how many Megahertz your computer has?  Purple????

***************BIOLOGY****************** 

1. Are you right-handed or left-handed?   right 

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?  Wisdom teeth 

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3. What is the last heavy item you lifted?   Trampoline

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?  Yes, falling off a horse!

************BULLCRAPOLOGY************** 

1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?  No, only God knows that

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?  Holly

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?  Errrr, no!

************DUMBOLOGY****************** 

1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?   4

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?   Not sure I ever have? 

3. Last person you talked to?   Bill

4. Last person you hugged?   Bill

**************FAVORITOLOGY**************** 

1. Season?  Autumn, nothing nicer than a crisp blue sky 

2. Holiday?   Christmas

3. Day of the week?   At the minute Friday, its my coffee with friends day

4. Month?  November, our anniversary is on 2nd

***********CURRENTOLOGY***************** 

1. Missing someone?  My mum, dad and sister

2. Mood?   Happy

3. What are you listening to?  Country

4. Watching?   The Paradise

***************RANDOMOLOGY**************** 

1. First place you went this morning?  School run

2. What's the last movie you saw?  Hope Springs, last night

3. Do you smile often?  I hope so 

4. Sleeping Alone Tonight?  Most definitely not

***************OTHER-OLOGY***************** 

1. Do you always answer your phone?  No I screen

2. Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?  A right wally,  I wouldn't hear it!

3. If you could change your eye color what would it be?   Green 

4. Do you own a digital camera?  No, I use my phone

5. Have you ever had a pet fish? Yes. 

6. Favorite Christmas song(s):   Any of them, I LOVE Christmas

7. What's on your wish list for your birthday?

8. Can you do push ups?  A few

9. Can you do a chin up?   Maybe one!

10. Does the future make you more nervous or excited?  Excited

11. Do you have any saved texts? nope. 

12. Ever been in a car wreck?  Yes

13. Do you have an accent?  Over here no, over there yes

14. What is the last song to make you cry?  ? not sure I have the worst memory

15. Plans tonight?  Catch up TV then bed, Bill is out

16. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?  Most deifinitely and the only way is up

17. Name 3 things you bought yesterday.  Jeans & joggers for William and sequin tops for girls

18. Have you ever been given roses? Yes 

19. Current worry?  William

20. Current hate right now?  I try not to 'hate' anything

21. Met someone who changed your life?  yes 

22. How will you bring in the New Year?   Asleep. 

23. What song represents you?   In Christ alone

24. Name three people who might complete this?  Jen, Misty, not got many readers

25. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?   Not to change anything but I'd relive my wedding

27. Do you have any tattoos/piercings?  Ears

28. Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now? Yes

29. Does anyone love you? Yes 

30. Ever had someone sing to you? Yes 

31. When did you last cry?   Last night

32. Do you like to cuddle?  Absolutely 

33. Have you held hands with anyone today?  Yes

34. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?  Not sure

35. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?   New

36. Do you like pulpy orange juice? The only kind!!!! 

Weekend x

So, Bill had to work on Saturday which doesn't happen a lot but is still annoying!! He had to get up at normal time which meant no lazy morning for us as our bedroom floor is possibly the squeakiest floor ever to have been heard and always wakes the kids up!! Anyway, my day started with homework! Well, we are having issues with William which I won't go into here but let's just say it took an hour and forty five minutes to do about five minutes work! Once that was done he went off to the movies with a friend and I had to drop Millie off at a party so Jaime and I went to the garden centre for a cup of tea and a cake! When asked what she wanted to do while the others were out she said she wanted to go somewhere for a meeting and a 'conversation'. So that is exactly what we did!! Brilliant! The afternoon was spent clearing out the kids rooms! What a fun thing to do!!! In fact I have made more mess now which I am choosing to ignore until my next free day which is not until Thursday. It does mean that we are now walking over charity bags and all sorts of stuff but it'll be great once it's all done!
Sunday was church, Harvest lunch and as it was sunny we cleared out the shed, put the garden furniture away, mowed the lawn and moved the trampoline! It now looks quite bare and wintery but we are ready!!
Enjoy the picture of gorgeous Jaime drinking her hot chocolate xx

Kidlets!

It rained yesterday!! No beautiful walk to school pics, we were too busy walking in the rain to stop! But this is of the kids on Friday in their pjs after the madness of the day, ready for bed. I love friday evenings, we had no plans, I'd got us pizza for tea to have once the kids had gone to bed and we slobbed watching tv with the weekend ahead of us. Except, this weekend is different, Bill is working today which always bums the kids out! It's not like it happens very often but still I feel bad for him and the kids :(
Anyway, he's bought me up a cuppa before he left and we have a busy day ahead. Homework first, Millie has a party, William is off to the movies with a friend and Jaime and I are going to a cafe to have a 'conversation' her words. Sunday brings church, Harvest lunch and room tidying!! I know, what a rock and roll life! We don't have everything, we never will, what we do have though is Love, for each other and for God and you know what, I kinda like it!!

Blue skies, crisp air and sunshine!

It was and still is a BEAUTIFUL autumn morning...here's a snapshot of our walk to school today xx

Millie and Jaime hiding by the tree

William took this one, it's right outside the school x

I love shadows because they make you look like you have lovely long skinny legs...This is William and I x

Autumn!!!!

Where has the spring and summer gone????  Facebook does nothing for my blogging, but I'm back!  So much has gone on this year, it's been good. 

This was my view on our walk to school 2 weeks ago, pretty much since then it's been raining, really hard too but I'm imagining all my walks to school like this.  Our new routine includes alot of walking!  I was too quick to get in the car last school year and so far we haven't driven once, even when it was POURING, and seriously it was awful but we did it, it's just over a mile to school.

So much has changed here, I have given up Phoenix but have got a job at school as a Midday supervisor twice a week which I am loving.  It is just enough to keep me going but leaves me time to do all the bits round the house and for the kids.  They are doing great, the girls have taken up gymnastics which they are loving and we have managed to get all of them swimming lessons too and they are all coming along with that too.

Generally, life is ticking along.  It is amazing how quickly the summer is forgotten and routine rules.  Only today my children were writing Christmas lists...they are currently taped to the mantel piece so Father Christmas can check on them!!

I'll be back soon x

A few pix

Just a few pix of what we have been up to recently.  William got to go rock climing as a school trip about challenging yourself, he LOVED it xx

Before the rain set in over the Easter holidays we spent a fab day at Bedgebury with some friends and the kids spent about 2 hours in this ditch digging out stones to see who could get the biggest pile!!  They had a blast as did us mums x

We also caved and bought a trampoline, or rather I should say I sold lots of cards and bought one....if Phoenix pays for stuff like this I'll be happy xx

Another shot of the Bedgebury day, Jaime on the swing x

William and Harry in the infamous ditch digging!

We had a great Easter break, we went to see my sister and hubby with my mum for the long weekend and it was lovely, we managed to get to the beach front on the first day as the weather was kind to us...We always have fun there and the kids had a blast.  Once home just chilled and did fun park runs alot of the time as the weather was ok but not great.  All back to school now so trying to catch up with housework and other chores... I decided this holiday to not bother even trying to keep the place tidy while the kids are off, it really isn't worth it and I miss out on all the other things we could be doing... I didn't choose to be a SAHM just to do housework!! 

It's raining again here, typical really as the rain started the day after the hose pipe ban was announced.  But gots lots to catch up so I'm off...Happy reading xx

The William Show!

So, we've had another busy week mostly doing stuff with the kids....the first picture is of William in his first football school tournament.  I wasn't even aware he played it and I have to say after watching their games realise he actually doesn't!  Bless him, he was soooo excited to be in the kit and to be there he didn't really care about the football.  The only time I saw him touch the ball was when he was off the pitch playing about.  But, all in all, it was a lovely afternoon.  The sun was shining, the girls were playing about in the field and Bill got home for it aswell.  Just lovely.  William is the one in the bottom right corner!

The next William adventure was the cycle ride he organised (with the help of Daddy) in aid of Sport Relief.  He wanted to do something to raise money so decided to do a 25km/15mile cycle ride with his friends.  They each had to raise £100 each, which they did and ride whatever the weather on Saturday!!  Well, the weather was shocking!  Bless them, it was windy, rainy and cold....But, they didn't complain and did it in 2 and half hours!  Go Boys!  The first pic is the boys before, how excited they look.

 This one is with the daddies!  What a cool group!

This one is proof they did it!  In fact 1.12km over!

And this lovely one is of them at the end, look how wet they all are...William actually got a bit weepy at the end as he was soooo cold and wet but also so proud...My friend Vicky had got them medals too so he took it to church this morning to show all the lovely people who sponsored him.

 One very proud Daddy and William x

 And of course, I couldn't blog without showing my gorgeous girls.  They had their first church parade today and got picked to be the flag bearers...they were so excited but did keep getting tangled up in it, it did take a while to get this picture!

That's about it today, it's Mothers Day here in the UK....So happy day to my moomin and Bill's mom too...Miss you guys and hope you had a good day xx

Sooooooooooooooooo busy!

Sometimes life just happens and you really don't get chance to stop and think about what you are doing day to day dont ya think!!

This year has gone incredibly quickly.  Jan was dark and miserable but full of birthday celebrations, Feb, well I don't really even remember it and now suddenly we are in the middle of March.  This month for me has been full of work and meetings.....it has been good, I have been doing more card selling raising money for the school, my Governor commitments have been huge this month and I am reeling with the amount of reading and information I am having to take on board.  I feel like I haven't really seen the children as much as normal but then that is not always a bad thing because they are being equally stimulated and challenged in their environment.  And to top it off, I looked in my diary today to kind of figure out the rest of the month and realised Bill goes away next Thursday!!  That's right folks, he is away for 10 days in Taipei for a worldwide work conference.  My gorgeous hard working, loyal American husband is representing GB professionals in his field...He even has to wear GB kit.!!!!  So funny, but I tell you what, he is majorly excited.  I am excited for him too, but for me, not so much.  During the week it is fine him being away, normally he has left the house before the kids are downstairs and not back till they are in bed, so apart from the adult conversation after 7pm nothing really changes there...BUT, he is away for 2 weekends....not quite so nice.  You are in no mans land on the weekend, you can't really see anyone as they are all having family time and really do feel a bit like 'Billy no mates!'  Anyway, I CANNOT complain, it is 10 days not months like some of my blogging buddies go thru with their deployed partners,  but for me, it is VERY unusual!.

Anyway, that is me.  William is in a football tournament tomorrow which should be fun to watch after school and I am planning on going to see The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel with my movie girlfriend.  We try to go once a month but not sure we managed it is Feb????

What are you all up too???
x

Izzy, Rainbows and Sushi x

So..... I got given some money from my Church girlfirends and some from family...I really wasn't sure what to use it for, but then I decided!  I bought myself a bike...all the kids have one and you know Bill and his obsession....so I would like you all to meet Izzy..I didn't name her, Bill did!!  Sorry the picture isn't brilliant, but you get the idea!  She's a bit retro and a really girly bike but I love her!

 Another cute thing that has happened recently is the girls got enrolled in Rainbows!  They were so excited and love taking part on a Friday night with all the activities....xx  Bless them xx

My other new discovery is Sushi...I always wanted to try it but wanted to go with friends that knew what they were ordering.  Anyway, for Bill's birthday we went to the local Sushi place, had a FAB meal and found they did take out!!! Woo Hoo....this was last friday nights treat, all while watching a movie!! 

Hope this week is treating you all well, we are all good here.  The sun has been shining and it is unseasonably warm and spring like considering it is only 1st March...but hey I'll take it over snow any day!
xxxxx

Catch up x

So, Lent has begun and I have given up Facebook.....it is rather weird to be honest, lots of communicating goes on through it, either for school, friends, or just being nosey...I'd like to say I am using this time to pray more and actually I have but not as much as I could.  What I have found, is that I have caught up on the odd admin jobs that I always mean to do on the computer but never get round to because I am FBing instead.....I know the school I am a governor for will really appreciate this as lots of things have been typed up and emailed off.

The other thing I have started is healthier eating.  I constantly seem to be dieting/bingeing/or not bothering, all the time.  This is NOT fun.  I obviously have a problem with food, maybe it is because I was a gymnast for such a long time and although my parents NEVER instilled unhealthy eating habits in me, being a gymnast did.  We did get weighed and we did get told to be careful if we put on or weren't looking a certain way.  I have always struggled with weight issues.....I am not grossly overweight but if you look at my heritage we are not lithe, svelte tall things!!   I don't want my children growing up with mummy constantly on a diet.  I want them to eat the same as me and vice versa.  So....I have cut down/given up carbs...  I have vegetables instead of pasta, I try not to eat bread on a daily basis and am cutting out cakes and chocolate (the latter 2 only really for Lent).  I am hoping this will help me to even out my compulsion to over eat.  I am not preparing lots of different foods for us all, I am basically having the same with less carbs....we'll see!

All in all, getting back to school with the kids has been fine, they all still have a shocking cough and I can't remember the last time I actually slept through as one of them is up coughing at the moment but I know that will pass.  We are heading into March and I noticed when we went to collect William from Beavers last night at 545pm it was still light, and when we did the school run at 3pm it registered 19 deg on my car...that was a little freaky but I did notice so many more smiles on peoples faces....gotta love Spring!

Bye for now
x

Kinect, A&E and they are not related!!!!!!

So, it is half term and so far we have been to A&E once and it is only tuesday!

Yesterday, Jaime swallowed a magnet!  Mmmm, I know!  It took alot to get her to admit she swallowed it though, basically she kept playing jokes on me, this went on for an hour or so, so much so that in the end I had no idea whether she was joking or not!  I had to scare her into telling me. (not my proudest parenting moment)  Anyway, we shot off to A&E after looking it up on NHS direct, had an Xray which all the kids got to have a look at and thought was brilliant.  It was already in her stomach so we were sent home to just let it come out naturally!  The joy of parenting!

Last night, we woke to Millie barking like a seal....croup had returned, again, the joy of parenting!  She is fine today quite croaky but hopefully we are in for a quiet night tonight.

Going back in time though, we had a fab weekend.  We got a Xbox Kinect......my girlfriends from school all gave me vouchers for my 40th, with the idea that it could be towards a Kinect for the family.  We got it this weekend and it is a blast, I love it, Bill is playing it right now and the kids love it.  I do have to limit them though as they get a little crazy after a while, taking turns is so hard!  But it is a great thing that we can actually all do together!  I NEVER thought I would say that about a computer game but there you go!

The rest of half term I am hoping is going to be less eventful and hopefully we might even get a bit of sunshine!!!  If we do I'm heading to the coast with the kids for a bit of a winter walk xx
x

A non valentine Valentine

The snow has gone and it is back to being grey and miserable!  February is always so hard!  It is Valentines Day and I am blogging and Bill is playing on the Kinect (more about that later), we don't really do Valentines.  Mainly because of the money, but also, Nov is our anniversary, Dec is Christmas and January is both our birthdays!!  Could it get more expensive!  Luckily our children were born in the summer months!  But also it is just that we don't feel the need for a day to express our 'love' for each other.  Every so often Bill will come home with a bunch of flowers, or some other token and I will take that over a double the price bunch of red roses any day..BTW yellow roses are my fav, red is so cliche!  He makes me laugh, he gives the best hugs, he is a great dad, he works his butt off providing for our family allowing me to stay at home with our children, he loves my family, he is fab at quizzes (I can't answer anything), he loves playing games, he is loyal and passionate and he is a man of God.  For me, I couldn't ask for more.  Little did I know that when I went to nanny for a friend I would meet the man I was going to marry...He had me at Hello! 

Happy Valentine babe
xx

Snow day xx

Meet our snowman

Jaime off walking in the snow

Beautiful trees with so much snow

The view outside our front door

Cute kids and snowman

Cute snow girl

Her impression of a snowman

Cute pic I took friday night on my phone x

40th Celebrations! - Post long overdue

Well, I am now officially 40!!

Celebrations started on Friday as my sister arrived from Cornwall...We had my whole family here for the weekend (minus Kenny).  Saturday morning I escaped the house early and went for a run....I know, can you believe it...my choice too.  I had a fab one, 4 miles on my own just with my Ipod..fantastic.  11am, the hairdressers.  I had planned on just having my hair dried straight, it is naturally frizzy/curly so always a treat to have done nicely.  My lovely hairdresser said def not, I need to have an up do and she was right.  I had an Audrey Hepburnesque bun, with gorgeous curls at the back.  I felt soooo glamourous, I've never had such a gorgeous up do, I even did my own hair for my wedding!  When I went to pay, Debbie informed me the birthday hair fairy had already been in to pay!!  That made me cry as she told me it wasn't any of my family, infact, she didn't know who it was!  Once I got home, it was to a bit of a mess.  Our new Ikea sofa had arrived.....nothing like pressure...2 hours later it was up and ready to go and I love it, it makes our room so much more liveable esp when mum and dad are here.  Bill went off at 4 to help decorate the bar, while we all hung out at home.  The party was brilliant.  I've never had a party before and we had chosen the local bar round the corner from us which is owned by a family at our school.   I was spoilt rotten by everyone.  The bar outdid itself catering for us, my friends and family treated me like a princess and I had soooo much fun!!  There were about 60 of us in total, friends from church, school, neighbours and family, it was wonderful having all the important people in my life in one space coming together....I would thoroughly recommend it!!!!!  I even bought a new dress!!

Sunday saw Bill going to church with the kids, the rest of us getting showered and ready to go out for lunch at our fav restaurant Rendezvous..again fab as all of us together.....we spent the rest of the day chilling together watching a movie.  Clare left early monday morning, everyone else got up early to wish me Happy Birthday and I got to open all my amazing cards and pressies.  Let me tell you, I was truly blessed xxx  I then spent the day meeting some girlfriends for coffee then having lunch with some other girlfriends and mum and dad.  I had a wonderful day   The turn around is quick though because it is Bill's birthday 2 days later and mum and dad kindly babysat for us so we went out to eat with friends to a local sushi restaurtant.  We have been wanting to go there for ages as I am a sushi virgin.  The friends we went with go there every week on saturdays for lunch so they knew what to order.  It was amazing, we had a fantastic meal with amazing food and great company. 

Mum and dad left the following day and life is slowly resuming back to normal, you've probably already read the post before this so you know where I stand there!!

Transition!

Ok, so I have a post on my birthday hanging around but I just haven't had the time to download the pix etc etc etc...excuses I know.

The reason mainly is because I have lost all focus!   I have finally realised/admitted that I have really struggled with the girls going to school full time.  Don't get me wrong, I LOVE that they are getting on really well, they adore their respective teachers, they are happy going into and coming out of school and they are well rounded gorgeous children.  I was so ready for them to go too.  In the UK, children go to school the September term after they turn 4, William is a July birthday so he went to school 2 months after his 4th birthday, the girls on the other hand are Sept 11th, a week after term starts so they stayed home for a whole year longer than him.  I had them home for effectively 5 years.  As many of you know, I struggled for at least the first 3 years of their lives with postnatal/postpartum depression but I have overcome that, it took a while but I am there.

I had no idea that I would feel like this.  I had plans, lists, the house was finally going to get tidied, washed, scrubbed after years of only surface cleaning.  Paint was going to be touched up. I was going to focus on and grow my business BUT, I have no focus!  It is hard.  I come home and float around.  I feel I don't have an identitiy.  I don't know where I want to be, what I want to do, it's hard.  FB, sitting not actually doing anything, doing small jobs but not actually achieving anything happens alot.  Dec and Jan have been wiped with mum and dad being here, stuff gets done but we also hang out and I love it.  They don't live locally so when they are here I'm not going to just go off and do jobs!  It's hard.

Anyway, after finally admitting this out loud (I have to do this, otherwise I don't admit it) I am starting over.  You know what, I have craved time for myself to properly catch up with friends...without being pulled on by a child, to go to the gym and then do, just stuff....I am letting myself do this in the hope that I will move on and get it out of my system.  I am not putting any pressure on myself with lists, goals or anything else I have to achieve.  I am trying to be happy with what I am doing/feeling/being right now..not what I could be, or what other people want/expect me to be.  I am going to say No, I am going to say Yes, I might even say Maybe, but I will only say any of these things if it is right for me.  I have been a full time mum for 8 years (yep remember I got fired at 15weeks pregnant with William).  I haven't been ME for that long in any long term capacity.  I have lots of different friends that I want to get to know and friendships that I want to maintain too! 

Watch this space, it could all change in a week but right now this is how I am feeling, right here, right now.  I have always and do always try to be honest here.  It helps me realize what is going on and I hope if anyone out there still reads this it helps them to realise that we don't feel like this alone.   It took me a LONG time to realise this family raising business is hard.  I pray for me and my family that we can find a happy place where we are all fulfilled and settled.
xxxxx

Random updates!

Hey all, sorry it has taken me so long to get back to here!  Below is a very small taste of what we have been up to.  Please excuse the quality of the pictures, the ones that are fuzzy are from our crappy camera which I think I may just throw away and the others are from my phone!!  But it at least gives you a rough idea of what I've been up too recently....                            

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    This first pic is just classic excitement of Christmas with the kids.....I love it xx

Before Christmas we went for a weekend to Sue and Jims and had a fab walk...we are so lucky to have these guys in our lives. x

I went to Paris!!!!  Amazing!

I've been working alot over Christmas, kind of a given for a greeting card seller huh!!  I really enjoy it and am just working out where to go next with it

More Paris xx

This was our secret santa, pink champagne, pressies all at the bottom of the Eiffel Tower!!!

I want this picture/art installation....just beautiful...I took this picture through a window, can you imagine what it would look like in real life!!

Anyway, that is a small snippet!  I am turning 40 in a few weeks so am finding that a bit odd, we are actually having a bit of a party at the local pub.  I've never actually had a party before, I didn't have a wedding shower but I did have a baby shower for the twins....so this is going to be odd....can't decide if I am happy about turning 40 or not!!!!!! 

xx